Topic: Smells Like Teen Trauma(namarixmissylooni)

[Namari]

Impa calms herself down slightly and goes to Links room, opening the door, " now you listen here, im sorry. Am i the best at this whole... mothering thing? no, i was never meant to have children. But i do love all of you as if you were. Yes, Sheik tells me everything. Because not once, but three times i've failed to keep my family safe by standing on the sidelines. MY inaction got almost my entire family killed, and i'll be damned if im going to let anything more happen to you if i can prevent it!" Her eyes blaze, " I was wrong to bring that up, and i admit it. Again, the whole motherly thing? it's not a natural instinct for me. If you were all still young enough for me to justify a nanny to help me get through all this i'd have one in a heartbeat. Thank god for nannies otherwise im fairly certain i'd have fucked up with Sheik in the girls even more spectacularly than i did just now at dinner. I don't know how i can make it up to you, dinner, your mother... everything i've failed at, but i want to be there so i can at least try."

[MissyLooni]

Link flinches when his door is opened and he sees its impa. He looks at the floor and rubs his arm as he listens to what she's saying, "I...dont want you to constantly try to make things up to me. You never did anything wrong. It's not your fault that every time you tried to help you were pushed away..." Link sniffles and wipes his face, "I genuinely just want privacy... if you know something about me i want it because i told you...living away from you guys is the only time I have any privacy...I understand the need to share everything back when I was a snot nosed brat but i-.. im not anymore. I take my meds, i go see a therapist, i pay bills, im old enough to drink and yet I dont as a choice and yet i'm still not treated like an adult..."

[Namari]

Impa sighs, " i... will try and back off. but please...please keep close with us. I've lost so much already, i can;t lose any of you."

[MissyLooni]

 "I want everyone to back off. If everyone wants me to open up to them then I need to know that my privacy is safe..." Link huffs as he stares at his bag, "And... you wont lose me. I have always been good at avoiding death."

[Namari]

Impa crosses her arms, " Link...you got lucky. that may not be enough one day. i should have spoken up, if i'd insisted that your mother not be cast out maybe... maybe everyone would still be alive. if i had insisted she let me help, maybe she wouldn;t have killed herself. if i had insisted you stay with me and the others, maybe you wouldn;t have gone through such horrible things. im not going to stand aside and let the same thing happen to you. none of us have ever told anyone outside of our family here anything you've told us, at least it stays within the family. but im sorry..."

[MissyLooni]

Link huffs, "But maybe I want to tell sheik things because me and him are similar. Things that are embarrassing and I dont want to be repeated! Or the girls for that matter! I appreciate you wanting me to be safe but it's suffocating."

[Namari]

Impa crosses her arms, "...i am your guardian, you can trust me. but i understand you not wanting the girls to know everything. we can limit the transfer of information to them at least. But i need to be kept up to date on what's going on with you."

[MissyLooni]

Link huffs, "But thats the problem. I dont trust you. At least not enough to tell you things. If you guys just kept to yourselves maybe I would be more willing to just update you myself."

[Namari]

Impa winces, " i would not pry so much if you would tell me things...i don;t know any other way to keep you safe. what am i supposed to do? i failed before, and it cost you all your parents, my siblings, and my parents. i... i just don;t know what to do." she sits down, covering her face with her hands as she takes breathes trying to steady herself."

[MissyLooni]

Link frowns and hesitantly pushes his bag away. He didnt mean to make Impa so upset. he just didnt understand... "All im asking... is for my consent into my life. For you guys to ask me and respect the information I give you. If I knew my privacy was being respected then I would be over all the time. I wouldn't hesitate to tell you anything. I dont think it's that much to ask for..."

[Namari]

Impa sighs, " somehow i doubt that. you lived away from us and yet you didn't trust us enough to even tell us the house made you uncomfortable. i should head back to work, i left early for this failure of an evening and im sure there's plenty for me to do...plus as long as im at work the press tends to stay there in hopes of seeing something instead of pestering you all." she gets up and takes a few deep breaths. " i won;t stop trying to stay in your life and keeping you safe. i can't. i will still protect all of you the best i can, even if you don't want me to. that is my job as the alpha of this family."

[MissyLooni]

Link's anger rose again when it became evident that impa wasnt listening, "Of course i didnt say anything! It didnt matter! Sheik still found out and told the girls! You got Ike involved too! Thats why i feel like i cant tell you anything! Whats the point when my privacy is going to be invaded anyway!?" He cant help the tears now. He can feel his face being hot and wet and he can smell his own pheromones from the amount of distress he was experiencing. He shuddered and grabbed the rest of his things, slinging his bag over his shoulder, "You know what- whatever. I'm out. I'm going home."

[Namari]

Impa looks at him harshly, " this is something that's apparently been an issue for years. YEARS. you had plenty of time to tell us. i've tried to give you time to tell me things, to come to me with your troubles and ongoings, but you never do! i understand you wanting to share things in your own time, but unless you plan to cut us out of your life entirely, then you have to eventually. how long did you plan to wait? a few more years? then tell us why you never wanted to be here? i already regret all the time wasted over something so silly, but you simply don;t trust me at all..."

[MissyLooni]

Link flinches under her gaze and whines,  "i- ive been trying to come over more. To get comfortable here. But every time im over i fuck things up! Especially right now! Im always fucking up and it's obvious that i don't belong here! I could very well end up finishing this family off like my father! "

[Namari]

Impa sighs, " you don;t fuck things up. you do belong here, you help Sheik be more understanding, you help Zelda be more responsible, and you help Paya challenge her comfort zone. And you help me be more patient. you are not your father, and you never will be. as much as i hate him for taking away my family, he also made your mother happy for a very long time. in a twisted way, he wanted you and your mother to be happy im sure. perhaps he thought if he did it, then you two would get the life he thought you deserved. he just didn't count on how stubborn my sister was. we all love you here and want you to be here."